Juggling

I think I have felt a bit of pressure with my birthday next month… a milestone, ha. So I’m feeling the need to accomplish things, and it’s so easy to compare to others who seem to have things managed well, especially online. I mean the moms who have multiple kids, and they have a business, they cook meals that their kids eat.

I’ve had three ideas in the last year for projects, but when it comes to doing, it’s not coming together. While writing this during my son’s nap time, he has already woken up (Update, a week passed before I returned to this. It’s 2am, he’s woken up twice again.). I know being a mom is most important, I just want to find some part of my old self. I think not having a present outside support system has made a difference, and while many here seek to have a helper live in their house, I am still very hesitant to the idea.I’m really thankful for the few friends I have made in Hong Kong, but I miss familarity. In my current physically present bubble, nobody knows me pre 2017.